hoo boy [19 Dec 2006|06:40am] [ mood | sleepy ] myspace is crazy. i don't think a quarter of the bands that are on it now would ever have had as much publicity and shows as they would have just a few years ago. what an incredible network. it can get annoying though, as we all know... i just started up a new myspace for my solo acoustic bullshit. i've been writing a lot more and i'm excited to put my new shit up for people to finally hear. it's a good (and completely overwhelming and nervous) feeling knowing you're out there for everybody to see. to be judged and criticized. hopefully somebody will like it. if you want to check it out it's on myspace. myspace.com/mikebowesmusic . i'm not hiding behind a bullshit name, i'm putting my real name up for better or worse. no sense in not being true to me and expressing myself as purely and simply as possible. that is exactly what this will be. i have a lot to say, too. i'm mad lonely. getting dumped for another guy sucks. the winter hit fucking hard this year and i don't know if i can really do it again and again year after year. something has to change. if it were the summer or spring or maybe even fall i could deal with what's been happening over the past month, but it's almost impossible to accept everything that's happened. ( you've heard about it! let's get the real scoop in a nutshell ) i can't wait to see my friends from college. i hope they haven't forgotten about me or lost interest. i don't want to seem clingy and annoying. i don't know if i'll ever be able to get over some stuff. i want to be out until 5 in the morning every night. no acceptions. i want to make tea late at night and talk. i want to walk in the cold streets in the early morning smoking a cigarette and laughing at how much we've failed at life. i wonder who will still be there in years to come. who will sift me out and who will be sifted out. i know the people who are important to me and will always be in my heart. i just hope they see something in me still worth keeping. in her myspace profile she has "i've been let down by the people i love, but i will not let down the people who love me." that's funny. 3 comments|post comment

then there were two [12 Jun 2006|02:12am] some people feel music flowing through them, an aura surrounds them, you can tell. when they talk their words run from their mouth like a flowing river of poetry. when they play the guitar love vibrates on their finger tips. i do not feel it. post comment

i'd sell my vote [08 Jun 2006|11:46pm] last day of school tomorrow, i feel like this is history in the making. everyone's excited but i feel so tired, like one more day is one too much. whatever. i've been searching for lance, my old ninjutsu sensei for months now. i've been wanting to train so bad lately. i finally reached him and i'm starting again tomorrow after school, and starting brazilian jiu-jitsu on monday. i want to train so hard, work harder at it than anything i've ever worked at in my life. i want to be able to protect the people i love and i want to have clarity. i feel like everything's about to change and i hope i have the dedication to become good at this and make it my life. i wonder where we will all be in ten years. it sounds stupid but i doubt my mind can handle any deeper thinking anymore. i feel like i won't be anywhere different. or at least somewhere different but still in the same hole. i also wonder where all my friends will be. i highly doubt anyone will bother to stay in touch. it's sad to think all of the relations we have will just fade away in time. i'm going to try hard not to lose anybody. last day of school tomorrow, first day of a new life. i don't want to turn back, i want to train hard, i want to move like a two mile long train stopping for nothing. post comment

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